I woke up feeling good today when suddenly i started being nervous about the visa thing again.. I dont wanna feel this great anxiety anymore, your heart beats fast.. your mind floats, even yourself floats. This week's the 3rd week of the visa processing, and still no news from them.. but I believe we will have the visa, God gave this chance to me and I know He listens to my prayers and to my hearts desire.

I have not want something like this before. I saw how God moved last night in the "deal or no deal" show on ABS CBN. The hard working guy who was first a gardener became a driver became a manager on a bar in Manila, and now after playing on the deal or no deal show.. he's now a millionaire. Who would expect some one like him will win, well I do.. The guy went too many many challenges, pain, hardwork in his life.. but his faith to God is still there. and Now, the price has come.. a million pesos by just one night.

Just like my life, I went to lots of pain, challenges, sacrifices & hardwork but then my faith in God is still there. I know that theres a saying that  "Everything happens for a reason" but the hard case here was finding what the reason was..

I found mine. Its to live with the most important people in my life.. there are lots of important people, but for now.. I just wanna be with the man I love, and everything will fall in to place.

I dont really need a million case of money... I only need the visa so I could be with the man I love and we could start building our dreams and our family. (oh, we already are a family)

and just like the guy..

Im gonna win.